if you see her...

if you see her :

(i) ask her how's life? i heard that she finally got out of "hell" and went to another type of "hell" but more fun...like geneva fun...( " ,)

(ii) how was raya? balik kampung tak, or i heard that u actually went to geneva for a meeting;

(iii) ask her hws her leg? the last i heard she needed some sort of surgery, and i really hope she actually did it, so she can walk better;

(iv) tell her im getting married in december, ask her if she will make it... oh and tell her. that i was really hoping that she showed up at my engagement, but i guess work got in the way...and i can understand that...

(iv) tell her i miss her so much, i miss talking, catching up, making up stupid jokes and just sit next to her. just a simple frend-missing-another feeling;

(v) last but not least, tell her that.... well ...wish her all the best in whtever she's doing and that she may find wht she is looking for in life.

this ones for you, gLuck bebeh!

Claybang4Raya!!

8th October 2007- final week before the long raya break, and im already in the mood for the long, long holiday. ( " ,)

wht happends after raya is another story (yikes nov approaching!!)

this year, to some point i was actually looking into reUsing the tunang baju (ala ShrekWannabe. haha) of course minus the selendang and the heavy makeUp. but alhamdulilah i managed to get new baju kurungs for this raya.

Looking back at last year's raya pics, the normal back to claybang, pepagi tunggu the house being invaded by children for duit raya ( abah n ma will usually get in to this small argument as to how much to give perperson..hehehe), sedekah fatihah kat kubur, visit the elders at jasin and bukit baru, of course roti john (yummmm) then balik KL,

it hit me several time lately, that this will be the last raya i will celebrate it as singleCurry.

sebak pulak nak sambung...

nite @ the outback

our gilerCrazy WTF!! nite ( " ,)

28th Sept 2007

wasnt sure whether it was the iceTea that i had (3 kali k minah tu refill..ish ish ) or just us gurls taking off our shoes (bra as well knott..haha) but i was sooooo wasted last nite!!

me knott and seid decided to berbuka puasa together at the ever famous OutbackAus @ bangsarVillage.. this is an all gurl outing before me n seid tie the knot (wei, not to each other and of course not tie ourselves to knott!!..hehehe)

seid will be flown away to his CharmingBruneian-APEC-Dude (and may i add wit a glam name)

and me with myMiaww (awwwhhhh)...

but demm both our wedding dates are so close by that only seid can insyallah will make it to my wedding!!

our conversation started from wht is currently happening in our lives to wht actually happend way back then to even gossiping about oliviaNewton John(haha u know wht i mean, kan?!!)

with of course constant refilling of my iceTea

(patut u pelik beb when i didnt feel like wee wee-ing after that..haha).

and then we continued at the nearest starBucks till it was closing time.

none of us wanted the nite to end ( " ,).

one of the reason why we didnt want it to end, under the laughs and constant gilerness last nite is that soon we will b heading our own separate ways.

meeting wont be as easy as a phone call away

(sob sob, really nak nangis, but the iceTea got in the way..haha).

so as i hold my breath while trying to stop myself from laughing at the wackoPics of us:

*here's to millions and millions of laughs and iceTea, be it with us again, or those who will fill our lives in the future.

*when bringing seid to a supermarket, make sure u bring a basket (instead of a trolley) or just leave her outside and go buy the one thing u intended to buy..hahahaha!!

* when one falls in the toilet (memandangkan this happend to u yeterday, ini untuk kau knott..hehe) the pain of the fall doesnt really kickIn as soon, lagi lagi dah kena jap.

u will feel it the next day( been there done that) so i hope ure doing well.

*to seid- nothing is more crutial than these few months bebeh, as i tell myself each day with constant challenges and yes stress (hehe), eppy preparing ureself for the nextBestThing! i love u to bitts ait!

*to knott- beb! we are so F.R.A.N.C.E. (wht was it again??hahaha). thns for the cranberries and ure love spreading into my life..

*to us- so looking forward for the karaoke Session, nak nyanyi sampai hilang suara eh? hehe

* toMyself- quit that thing that they introduce to me that they have quit themselves recently.

(hehehehe)

curry.

nurin dalam kenangan

Nurin Jaslin bt. Jazimin
1999- 2007


21st September 2007

i hear babies being placed , i cry
i hear babies being found dead in toilets, rubbish bins, i cry thinking wht is wrong here..
then i hear Nurin and the way she died a gruesome death, i just sink further...
as i was driving this morning, etime a child or a small kid passes by, i wonder...

how can anyone in their right mind kill another? such an innocent another?
like nurin?

was it random? revenge? or just pureRapist?
and wht do we learn from this?
that it is not safe for children anymore?
to wonder around and a be a child?
and if say the bastard is being caught,
the motives been revealed,
can actually close this chapter of event???

al-fatihah

kerjaSetan!!!!

18th September 2007


yesterday nite i watched the news and my heart broke when i heard about the foundings of a child (age 8 to 9) dead in a bag in PJ.
forensics at the scene estimated that the child died about 6 hours before they found the body.

lots went through my mind-
may be ahLong's did it, some poor family couldnt pay the debt,
so their child becomes the victim.

then , nurin's (the latest missing child) parents were called for identification, cant imagine wht went through their mind, but they were relieved that it wasnt their nurin (he said "alhamdulilah bukan anak saya" but it somehow felt weird, because good news for him but bad for another)

anyways, the worst was yet to come.

today in the paper, reports of the gruesome findings of that poor child.
-sexually abused with the weapon of abuse (timun) still intact to the body!!

my heart sank even further..i inhale deep breaths, feeling my blood rush up to my head. im so mad to hear this.sad becomes upset...upset becomes outraged...outraged fuels my anger even more!
wht human!! no.. wht animal could do this!!!...
no no..
nothing comes close to wht has hapend to this child.
a definite setan's work....

arent human suppose to be the highest most intelligent creature made to lead this earth???

malu! malu dengan binatang bile dengar this news. manusia yang melakukan pembunuhan kejam ini bukan bole disamakan dengan binatang, tetapi lebih rendah daripada itu!!

setan diantara manusia hidup di antara kita.
sebab semestinya ini memang kerjaSetan.

who pays wht??

i know if we ask generations before, this was not a question left unanswred, way back then , because only the husband brings back the bread, its obvious that all bills are settled by the husbands, thus the crowned " man of the house". but time has changed and then evolves the concept of living together.
today both husbands and wives are working..

does this means that the responsibility of paying the bills also changes?
wht about when the wives earns more than the husbnds? will their ego be bruised if the wives settles all the bills? wht becomes of the concept "man of the house?"

i remembered this movie i watched about 4chineseLadies whom originated from china and migrated to america, which all had daughters and one of them married a chineseAmerican men, who decides everything needs to be splited. on the fridge they listed things that are hers to pay and then his to pay then the "grey areas" (like ice cream that she doenst eat, she has to pay just because its considered a grey area item). even having dinner at some restaurant, they have to split, even tho the wife only had a salad and the husband a full three course meal. whts worst, the husband earns a 7 figure salary and still demands bill and payments to be split to two..yikes..
i also remembered the time i use to date guys like that. how can i forget that guy whom buys me cheap dinner when its his turn to pay and demands expensive restaurants when its my turn. and on dates, i have to comedown KL by train, just because to him picking me up from home is one of the activity which he considers wasting money(thank god only later on that he mentioned dating me was a waste of time and not at that very moment..hehe). then when watching a movie, he only pays his ticket..bole?!!

How about the other guy that asks me out for tea/dinner whtever, orders lots of food, then coughs up RM5???. .

and the other that doesnt even coughs up any money at all?? ish ish. (mind you these two jerks are not even my bf k. i was like their safetyNet-passerBy-Loser/idiot!!!
(ok im pushing myself too hard, i am happy now, just that was way back then)

but does this means (or maybe that is why) alot of women nowadays, look for man with alot of money.. is it because with money comes security? is the assumption that when a women marries a anak datuk or anak tansri that all her financial doings will be solved?

trust me, ive witnessed frends who marry sons of riches and still have problems on who pays wht, funny thing tho, ive also met frends who marry ordinary people (sons whom father has no tittle, and some father has passed away) and yet managed to live rich and full of life.

all of these made me wonder...

why bother living together if the innitial aspect of who pays wht is still not solved?
or am i missing the whole point of waking up to my insyallah husband, my protector, the one that will lead my prayers, my life as well as the one that makes sure there will always be a roof on top of my head?? and that i shluldnt even be the one worrying about this "who's pays wht " thingi, and that maybe im just thinking too much??

currentLy curry

4th september 2007

am always wndering away, writing crap and precious moments in my small hidden diary..i miss the usual typing here at the blog, curry n crap.

im sorry. to all that has frequently opened my blog and find nothing but old writings. i still hope you are still visitting, and continue to visit as im now all revmped and ready to blog away..blow me away with your thoughts and ideas and comments about my life. i wont promise you i will change, but ive got a good ear to hear and listen.besides it does help when there is actually someone reading my thoughts (kinda makes me feel important!!)

currentLy-crazy with work, life and myMiaww.
if by now u dunt know that im engaged, in love, in serious need of financial management and to be wed this dec, then u must have just bumped in to me. haha.im a loser at keeping secret, of keeping it kewl.i just love to tell it all, particularly me planning to do the next best thing.

as ive mentioned a few blogs away, this is my new phase.step.stage.level in my life that will change me forever.

follow me as i count down the days (and months) of wht is left being single.
mmmmmuahs.

cheers!

Love Indefinitely...

25th June 2007

how does one know when its actually love?

a frend asked me this today, and at first i didnt know wht to answer him. he was of course in a situation himself, a sensitive one..love of a frend gone bad..gone wild, they found Love but its a story becoming sad. because it has no happy ending, it has no future.

he asked me if ive ever gone thru as he is going thru right now. yes i answered.

i told him all the difficult time i use to have trying to figure out wht this f***ing Love is all about. me and my stupid curiosity, brought me to many people that has shaped how i see life today, and how i feel love today..and as i was trying my very best to sound strong and arrogant, but i cant help but realise that it does still hurt.

my first love made me blind.it blinded me from making the right decision. it delayed me from saying goodbye.But be it delay as many would say, i fnally did it. and as much as it hurts doing the most boldly decision, i did it. i let him go.

then along came the rumblingLove.the type every gurl would naiveLy come across. particularly when your future was just crushed right before your eyes.as my first love blinded me, it left me stupid of judging anything right at all.love became cheap, the words became worthLess, ...love was just a word. a fourLetter word.

as my blindness never made me see light, let alone another forever, then it was soulLove. to bits i loved him. till ashes may we live together, in our world where there is no need for forever, just right now. that very moment. because we hate to talk about the future. because there is no such destiny. there is no future, between me and him. this is and was and will always be love. its just that its not meant for forever. its not meant for weddings and childrens and grandchildrens...it was for the soul of my heart, the healing of it. the nurturing process of it. to be ready for my next discovery of love...the love that sounds a little more forever to me..

my RecentLove, myMiaww. (as inserted)


p/s: hang in there bro, just relax ait.

latest chapter of curry.

22June 2007

buzy, numb and in love. that would probably be the reason why i hanvt dropped a line or two here. . even when i do have the guts to, nothing useless worth writing comes out of me.

if you have read me previously, no doubt i was sad, mysterious and predictable at the same time. interrupted in life as a sore chapter, i am now fit for a new one.

im in love. fallen, collapsed on to, crashed. every possible way that ive gone through.
the next best thing to do when your in love (besides imagining wht would it be like to wake up beside him ( " ,)
is to plan a life together.
yes, my latest chapter.

9.50am.